Blue Skies...

So I got this awesome text from my used to be "AZ" girlfriend, she's now home again. For how long...God only knows, but I'm happy to have her here for however long he lets me have her. Onward...the text, she simply told me to keep my chin up... and I had to share it with you. It's kept me moving. Moving through the valley...I've kept my chin up, that's exactly what I've been doing. Keeping my eyes up, my face up, my chin up...everything pointed to the heavenly realms. It's good. It's helping. It's Jesus...he sees me looking for him when I'm tired and want to look down. Just as soon as I begin to look down, he catches my eye and I begin to focus again. I see blue skies...the valley isn't so black anymore...Jesus is walking beside me.

Lately I see him in my husband. When I don't want to move forward, do what needs to be done, change what needs to change...Andy loves me still. That makes me want to walk the valley, makes me climb the impossible mountain, move the unmovable. He keeps up the prayer vigil nightly. He serves me with an open hand and an open heart. At our last FPU class I was reminded of so many times that Andy has given of his heart to me freely...without expectation of return. I see Jesus in my husband and I fall in love with him all over again. How wonderful is that? Wouldn't that be worth going through trial for? Wouldn't that be worth God refining and molding me...only to show me that the victory in the end will forever bless my marriage ? I believe so...yes, I'm sure of it...Jesus has made things clear to me and I'm just now ready to accept them.

I'm gaining courage and strength as I battle through this...Jesus is my savior time and time again. How truly I see his love when he picks me up and dusts me off, sets my feet on solid ground, takes my hand, and leads me forward. God...I cannot thank you enough times, with enough words for giving your only son. My heart skips a beat, tightens in my chest, and my breath is taken away when I think of the sacrifice...something I don't think I could ever do. What an amazing God I serve...full of grace...and love...